So sad

*15.12.09

Time is passing

Everyone is changing without we know

Attitude, behavior anything

Me too, YOU too

Become better or become worse?

Your own choose

What i see is just from cover

You change...

Undeniable, you change better than previous. Because

you follow the rules of games

But,

you lost at the end of games

I thought i can control you

I thought i can handle you

I thought i can change you

Actually, I can't

I have no authority

I have no energy

I have no power

I'm blind, at the darkest place all the time

I don't well know who are you

thats why...

So sad, i failed to change you

I change myself instead...

I start to change myself

from 0

to 0.1

At least...

easier than i change you

So hard, so sad

I believe myself

*16.12.09

But, i feel i still the same

in the old leaf